Happy CNY?

I'm too lazy to blog. Have fun looking at the pictures

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That aside,

I think i'm a selfish person.

I care about nothing except for myself. it's all me, myself and I.

I tried to be nice. But many time, it's hard.

Why would I wanna help someone whom I don't care about?

urghhh.

I hate myself

Vanessa you can just die right now.

Hello sunshine! i'm back from Bintan about 3days ago! But i've still not really got over my holiday mood. I don't wanna go back to school!

I have so many tests coming up and mr.M is coming soon. urghh.

That aside,
I have a couple of pictures from Bintan.

This is my mummmy! love her new ripcurl tiny bikini

Then the adults went for massage.

While Terence and me babysit Victor.

Yes, all the way til dark! and at the pool! 2different pool.

me want rosy cheeks!

When we got back, we were really tired and sunburnt(cept for me)

Victor : "tiger and vanessa" and then proceed to put his tiger on my shoulder and took this photo.

Next day..

I look pretty awkward cos everyone was looking at me.

And we head off the the "whatever it's called"! YAY!

horseback riding.

Cool?

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Photos from way back!

Jasmine act shy one. haha

I'll blog about my cny later on or tml. I have to get ready for school now!

Yeap, i woke up at 4.50am

So I've just bathed and decided to blog. Don't you guys just love me for being so dedicated to my blog? well, except for abandoning my blog for like 1-2 weeks?

I swear i'll blog more!

with love,

VANESSA

fuck!

I wish everybody I hate will just die!

Or disappear.

People like the mother.


I'm not gonna take the poa test alr la. all bcos of her.
all bcos of that bintan trip. wtffffffff

Now I cannot take O level poa alr la. Urghhhhh

Breakfast at Macs

This is the first story that I teared when I read it. So why not share it over here.

I am a mother of 3 (14, 12 ,3) and have recently completed my college degree

The last class I had to take was sociology

The teacher was absolutely aspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced on.

Her last project was called 'smile'

The class were asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reaction.

I am a very friendly person and smile at everyone and say hello anway. So, I thought this would be a piece of cake.

literally

Soon after we were assigned to the project, My husband, youngest son and I went out to Macdonalds one crisp march morning.

It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son.

We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, and then even my husband did.

I did not move an inch.. an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up inside of me as I turned to see why they had move.

As I turned around I smelled a horrible 'dirty body' smell, and there standing behind me were two poor homeless men.

As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was 'smiling'

His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he searched for acceptance


He said, 'Good day' as he counted the few coins he had been clutching.

The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation.


I held my tears as I stood there with them.

The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted.

He said, 'Coffee is all Miss' because that was all they could afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm).

Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes.

That is when I noticed all eyes in the restaurant were set on me, judging my every action.

I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray.

I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the blue-eyed gentleman's cold hand.

He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, 'Thank you.' I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, 'I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope'

I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son.

When I sat down my husband smiled at me and said, 'That is why God gave you to me, Honey, to give me hope..'

We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give.

We are not church goers, but we are believers.

That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love. I returned to college, on the last evening of class, with this story in hand.

I turned in 'my project' and the instructor read it. Then she looked up at me and said, 'Can I share this?' I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class.

She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings and being part of God share this need to heal people and to be healed.

In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's, my son,the instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last night I spent as a college student.

I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would ever learn:

UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE.

I'm going to Bintan tml! :D

YES! I KNOW! what's with me?!
I go to Bintan like 2times every year.

This year, i might be going to Bintan, Aust and London(school trip) !

Pray hard

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So anyways, there's a couple of bad and good news.

Bad news : No dance for two weeks ):

tml's my poa test (super major if i wanna take O level poa) and i still haven't pack my bintan's stuff

I can't think of any good news `cept bintan and my first $50 angbao!

):

The way you walk
the way you talk
the way you say my name
it's beautiful, wonderful
don't you ever change
Hey ____ why are people always leaving
I think you and I should stay the same

I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
come feel this magic i've been feeling
since i met you

I REMOVE MY TAGBOARD ALREADY!



YAY! (: I'm so sick of the spammers la. wth la, why you guys hates me so much and wanna spam me with such degrading comments!



Not like I know you, not to mention offended you.

why why why!



okay fineeeee. i'd like to believe that i'm so awesome that you guys hate me so much. I haven't even blog for a long timeeeee now.





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I'm having math tuition later on. ):

I cannot skip N level. oh wells..

tml is friday which means last school day of the week and means, tml i will be chanting " yay. tml is saturday! Tml is dance!"

Then on saturday itself, i'll chant " I'm so nervous but I can't wait for the clock to turn 7!"

Then when it's 7, i'll be like "i'm nervous no more(: and i'm enjoying every single seconds of it."

At 8, i'll secretly wish that I'm a fast learner so that people will wanna dance with me during dancefloor(idk what it's called)

after 9, i'll chant, " So fast over? I can't wait for next saturday."

WAIT!
I'm going to Bintan next friday. which means i'll miss one dance lesson): hopefully there's a make up lesson. man!

I cut bangs.

I feel like vomitting. I think i ate way too fast. whenever i'm at home, i eat 10x faster then I always feel like vomitting but today is really bad even chocolate doesn't help.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR SATURDAY!

waiting for saturday!

TYR : hahahaha. I swear I will update more often when i'm in a better mood!

school, studies and stuff like this.
Though i'm still slacking but even trying to listen in class is more tiring than I thought!
So I practically sleep once I reach home til a certain timing then I do some homework, have dinner and back to sleep.

and somemore, Snowball is taking up a lot of my time as well!

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2 things that i've done recently.

Finally got to try sheesha!
No kick. haha, it's nothing la. but is sure a good place to chill. That's what I think.
It is fun at the starting then it got kinda boring.
Next Chill is nicer than Viceroy. lol.

Secondly, I joined Annie's dance studio!
can't wait for saturday to come!

There is nothing I want more than to dance right now.
Snowball is always trying to trip me. keep standing in my way when I practice at home so I give up.

It's just so much fun! Learning Samba now. Is that the right spelling?
I wanna learn jive!

This is yet another no picture/videos blog entry!


wooo

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1) friendster sucks. it's sooooooo super duper whooper uber mucho gusto slow!

2) something stupid happened today

I went to northpoint (power 9 i guess) and get a small tragus stud. then went to the toilet.
then decided that i wanna get one more so went all the way back up again
then when I'm almost reaching the 1st level, i drop the stud into the escalator
so i went all the way back up again to buy another 2 stud. just in case i drop it

I have Jasmine to hold on to it until i'm in a safe zone where I will not drop it.

3) some guy asked to be my friend. obv i said NO

4) snowball just rolled over. super cute!

5) snowball knows how to sit, up and down!

6) I want to be a princess

7) I have an organiser! :D

TYR my dear! I got no pictures & video, whatever I blog will be so boring lor! nothing interesting as well!

okayokayokay, about the christian thingy... let's stop it man!
Seriously, if anyone wanna know about my r/s with God, it's me!

Sometimes I love him
Sometimes i think otherwise.

If I paint a beautiful landscape (which is obv not so pretty), i will love it. Even if it's ugly.


So you get what I mean?

If God shine a bright light from heaven and in a loud blooming voice and tell me to crucify myself and 3days later, i'll rose and ascended to join him, I will.

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NO COMMENTS ABOUT THE CHRISITIAN THINGY OK!!

Jasmine and Dawn came over to see Snowball. Snowball is lucky!
he got my longest commitment. haha. I have never taken care of anything for more than 2weeks!

I killed so many pet alr ):

hmm.. let's see.. what can I talk about?


nothing leh!

I wanna go sheesha. lol. Today Fiona talking bout it. sounds fun. I think i'm damn lag la. Alot of people have tried it already except me!

About a week ago, I was watching Bring it on. Then Lenise told me that she just watched it few hours back!

Then ytd, I was watching Titanic, then she was loading it! Coincidence?


xoxo,
Vanessa